June 11, 2005
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I've been having
this fear lately. I don't know where it's coming from. I'm
watching all these women at work, get married, buy houses, have kids,
have more kids, come to work everyday. I'm scared to death to get
married, have kids buy a house and end up with a mundane life where my
biggest goal is to take care of other people and make them happy.
I've done that my whole life. I want freedom. I want to
travel. I want to do nothing. I want to eat chocolate ice
cream for dinner and not have anyone ask me "When are you cooking
dinner? Hey, what's for dinner tonight?" etc. I want
to see Europe. I want to spend time driving around the
country. I want to be able to take a trip for the weekend because
I want to, and not worry about baseball practice or dance class.
I want to walk around my house naked. I want to swim in every
ocean in the world. I want to climb a mountain. I want to live
life.
Comments (3)
So, start living life. Start seeing the nice about a day, even if it's just a funny shaped cloud. Start taking a little bit of time to yourself even if it's just those three seconds it takes you to get to another room. Start saving money for a trip that your going to take someday. It doesn't matter how much you put in, or even if you won't be able to take the trip for ten or even twenty years. But, you'll know that the means are there and waiting for whenever you get the chance.
Oh, and don't worry about the future so much.
glo, that's what we all want to do (okay so maybe not everyone, but a lot of people) sadly, we don't have enough $$ to do that......everything is about $$$...but i agree with claranets....... and as much as life might suck sometimes, i still think life is an amazing gift.
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