I know I don’t post up that often anymore, but what happened to this website?  There is so many things on the home page to look at I couldn’t find how to get back to my page.  Then After I did, I couldn’t figure out how to navigate my page.  Craziness.  I don’t like.  But I don’t like change.  I’m sure I’ll get used to it and like it again… We’ll see. 

Some flower pics I took a while back.

So I got this kitten and I never posted about it!!  I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I know nobody wants to HEAR about the kitten.  So here are the pictures.

This is when he first came home from the hospital ( I mean animal shelter). 

My baby!

Growing and playing!

Now that you’ve seen the pictures I feel at liberty to do all the rambling I feel like. 
1.  He’s my baby.
2.  He’s a boy.
3.  His name is Toby,  Tobby Snuggles.  And yes, I do call him by both his first and second name when he’s in trouble, which is always. 
4.  He’s cute, but he’s got claws of doom. 
5.  He’ll attach anything that moves, yesterday he ate a fly.  Now he’s the little old kitten who sallowed a fly.  And yes he’s willing to swallow a spider to catch the fly.  I have a feeling it would be his pleasure. 

I woke up this morning with intentions!  Good ones! 
5:30am woke up went to the mall.  Got some (not all, but some) shopping done.

My life has become a mess so today is before and after day.

BEFORE:

I had do do a during for this one because it was so cute.  I must admit.  It takes me much longer to make my bed since getting this cat.

DURING: 

AFTER:

Ok, so my next task was to clean my desk, this was not possible, because I couldn’t sit in my chair. 

BEFORE: 

AFTER: 

So now I can tackle my desk. 

BEFORE: 

I swear it really is a desk. 

AFTER: 

BEFORE:

AFTER: 

BEFORE: 

AFTER:

It’s so nice to live here now. 

For my own tracking and to keep me focused.  This way I know whether or not I am wasting my own time. 

Here’s today. 

•   I woke up at 5am, called in sick.  Went back to sleep until 6:30
• 6:30 woke up, typed up sub plans to send to school.  Pulled my car out of the drive way.  Looked up the phone numbers of people I have to call today and made a list. Ate a bowl of Cheerios, did some of the dishes and started this post.
• 8:00  Called car dealership and brought car into get window fixed.  Took the car to the dealership.  Was told it would take 2 hours to fix.  Waited around for a little while and worked on my field notes for grad school.  Finally decided to take a cab home. 
• 10:00  put away laundry and paid a bill that came in the mail. 
• 10:30  began working on lesson plans
• 11:00 ate ramen noodles for lunch.  Cheap and whats in the house. 
• 1:00  completed last week’s plan book the way it was supposed to be with all the testing that’s gonig on.  Took a nap.
• 1:30 Stretched from nap.  Want to go to dunkin to get coffee, but don’t have the hour it will take me to walk there and back.  Workin on science plans instead.
• 2:00  Science lesson plans for the week are complete, SS for today Math for Mon and tues.  Making a few necessary phone calls to docs and the such.  Really what took the most time was the automated system at SSA.  They would make me say and spell the last name, and then i would make some weird “calculating sound” and make me wait for a whole minute to input the stupid name.  A person would have made it A LOT faster!  After ti took the machine 5 minutes to take my 1st and last name, SS# and state of birth and mother madien name.  Ugh!  Then i get a human who verifies all the same crap!  To top it all off i had to call back.  when i was done.  (That was due to my own stupidity.)
• 3:00 went to pick up my car.  Window cost me $270.  Ugh.  Had dunkin with ralph, cafine doing wonders for me. 
• 4:30  Currently looking for paper to go work on. Worked on the paper out in the sun for a while.  Got a good handle on my introduction.  Decided to go to the library to do a little more research to make my foundation stronger. 
• 6:00 left for Queens College.  Registared for a seminar I need to take for certification.  Went to the library, organized my paper work, went to grab a sandwhich and choose which article to reread and site from. 
• 8:00  Updated my calendar for this week.  Realized that I only have like 2 mores weeks to really finish this massive paper and that I’m screwed.  Decided not to dwell on that and update my xanga.
• 8:30  Got back to work on my paper.  Found more articles to back my research.  Will print them tomorrow. 
• 10:30 left the library to go find my car.  Couldn’t quite recall which street I parked it on. 

People are all so different and yet all so similar.
We all seem to hurt, although some hide it better than others.
We all have our own little things we share with one another.
We all bring different things to different peoples lives.

Just talking to people lately has made me realize how much
we all have our own little worlds that we live in.
Its so nice to share in someone elses world, especially new worlds.
New worlds bring the same plot lines to new stories. 
They make you feel things you’ve always felt in a whole new way.
You see things you’ve always seen from a different point of view.
Inviting new worlds into your life creates new worlds of their own.

So the last 2 days I’ve lived on my own.  I went to work, I came home, I did laundry, I cooked for myself.  I sat alone in my living room.  I walked around in my underwear.  I did normal household things.  I kept myself very busy with things that needed to get done.  I got them done.  I can say I’m living on my own and I like it. 

My New Year’s Resolutions:

1. To have more fun.
2. To stop being a chicken.
3. To be neater.
4. To keep my desk clean (This is re-occuring every year.  It probably should be moved up to number one b/c it’s should be a top priority……  not to mention there’s #1 needs to be number 1 priority)
5. To stop “Shoulding”  and if i use the word should to ignore that statement and do what I originally intended. 
6. To be more patient with my mother.
7. To not procrastinate.
8. To go to the gym 3 days a week CONSISTENTLY. 
9. To eat healthier food.
10. Be positive about things and myself. 
11. To pick one or two of these things and actually do them.  
    

So when my alarm when off this morning I was dreaming about an old love.  I happend to be visiting him, staying at his place while he was visiting home.  The setting was interesting, because it was my fathers old house.  The dream started when I woke on the morning of his last day of visit.  I went and woke up his mother who was sleeping on the stairs by the door.  Which is a pretty interesting choice of location.  When I went to go wake him, he was in fact already awake.  I was disaapointed that we didnt get to cuddle.  I noticed how he never would have been up at this time when we were together.  He went to pack, and suddenly we were in the kitchen which was all packed up to move, and set like a living room.  Behind a couch I found a duck (maybe it was a goose).  It was wounded.   Suddenly, I think I was a duck.  I was trying to help the hurt bird.  Its wing was hurt.  I didn’t know what was wrong with it.  The human me, gave the helping duck some bread to give to the hurt bird.  The hurt bird took the whole piece right from its mouth.  This is when my alarm woke me up.  Very symbolic.  At first I thought the hurt bird was him, but on closer examination.  I’m starting to think I’m all the birds.  Basically, I’m a sitting duck.  I said at least once we have to get this duck flying again, but I didn’t know how to do it.